When a Chapter Closes

It's pretty amazing the things you can learn from one person. Someone can come into your life and present to you a whole new chapter. Great things happen when you meet someone who you know is a unique, creative and interesting individual. There's never a dull moment with these kinds of people. You are always learning something different, something useful, all while building a trust and friendship just as unique as the people in it. You become drawn to this person's energy and excitment. This person is someone you can almost always be yourself around, speak your mind without judgement, and just have a sincerely wonderful time with. You begin to create memories with them, and later in life you will always have something to look back and smile upon.

Amanda Maltos is this person to me. It's not everyday an amazing person shows up in your life and changes it. We both went through some rough patches in our individual lives and were just so comfortable talking to each other about them. Amanda, I will cherish the friendship I had with you for as long as I am alive. I hope and pray that our paths will cross one day, then we can, once again, begin our friendship in the new chapter, because my book is still being written, and so is yours. "amber is the color of your energy..."





...don't forget about me.

Anger management

Fuming like a wild fire out of control, off the hinges. Go to class, learn to deal with situations in a calm, collective manner...yea right. What's the point. Anger is an emotion. An immature person will deal with anger irrationally and unreasonably. They'll throw things, making holes in the walls. They may even kick in an unlocked door, unrooting the frame from the wall, just because it feels good for those brief two seconds. anger management. I think its something we'll all learn in time, with life experience and the gaining of patience and understanding our consequences of our actions.

Wurn Park

I feel like I have lost my spark. I feel as if all my spirit is dissipated from existence completly. Happiness should come daily, like the sun. But dark clouds move in and my gut is reeling in feelings of dispare. The clouds are here to stay.

Changes

Its time to do something with my life. I want to be successful and I want to have an impact on people..like Bob Marley did with his words in his songs..maybe I'll start writing songs..I can sing really well, I just don't have an instrument. I'm going to do something soon, I feel it. Its coming like a thunderstorm. Whether it be within the next few months, our even the next few years, its coming. And its going to be huge. Just wait..and watch...and everything bad that's in my life right now will be put down, and that includes certain people. Jacob and I are going to forever be changed.

Now, I have to get started..I dont know who reads my blog, maybe one person, maybe two..maybe no one. But soon..it won't even matter.

Pathetic

I'm sitting by my pool, again. Not like you care but this is my fifth time in four days lazy by the pool. At least its Friday, although lately every day seems like Friday.. I like it. But I don't expect it to last too long. Its better than being inside in front of a TV all day. The weather is wonderful and I'm getting a tan ;)

Short time til rent's due date.

Due June 1st and I'm making a hundred dollars a week. This is the ultimate of being broke. Its the worst feeling knowing you cannot buy groceries and the worst part is not knowing when you can feed your family. I've struck it low, and I'm not sure how much longer it will be til a break of some sort. I'm slipping..and I'm slowly losing my mind.

Angry Girlfriend

Its been a minute since i've come here and written words that no one reads. However, its time for me to express some issues in my life, since it has done a 180 on me. First, because I'm an American I am going to exercise my first amendment rights (that would be freedom of speech for those of you who don't know what your first amendment is)

...and to get started...

Girls. I am one. So I'm forced to get along with them right? WRONG. I'm tried of people thinking they can trample around in my life. And i really mean TRAMP-le. Homegirl thinks she can come hoe around in my life with my lover, and not get plowed. Farm animals aren't allowed in my home turf, this includes my guy. So you can go snort n' waddle away like pigs do and find some other happy couples mud to roll in. Let these words be a reminder, and a warning to any and all. Especially one in particular...

And just so you know, Donnie was to blame as well, but he's still feeling the heat, no game to that. Dogs will be dogs and tramps will be tramps. :p

On a lighter note, I no longer work under the gorilla.
(this is all I will say about her, for now)

I work for a wonderful family owned food store company. They treat you like family, and the girls are so nice. It doesn't pay much, but one day I'll catch a break. Maybe...But there's no sense in being pessimistic about it.

Take care loves.
J. Frizzznickels